Melancholy meets Sanguine

Ya, I know...I hate those stupid personality types too...honestly, the people that walk around and say such things as, "well, you know, it's just the choleric coming out in me". Sheesh, like it is some defense for poor judgment...Anywho...

These last few weeks have been interesting...I think that the medical term that I mean when I say 'interesting' is depressed. I don't remember ever feeling this way except back when I was a kid when some fairly crappy life stuff took place. I guess what resurfaced it was the "dealing with it now phase". I honestly looked through all of the ringtones on my cell to find the song 'Bad Day' so that it could be my theme song. You know..."So you've had a bad day, you're taken one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it around"...and so on. At this point, I have tried my best to stay home and sleep as much as possible. I have no desire to do the things that I love and I find myself pulling away from them, except cooking...I still love to cook...you can all drop by whenever you want and I'll cook for you!? And to top it all off...I detest the thought of being in social situations...So, I make myself do things. Like last night, for example, I made myself go over to some friend's house. I just wanted to stay at home, but I thought that if I keep up with this, things will only get worse. So we went and wouldn't you know, I had a fabulous time. I think that the desires and personality that God gave me win out even when I 'feel' differently. I suppose there is a life lesson in that...I'll approach that later.

However, I have had some good times over the last few weeks. We celebrated Teesha and my birthdays...We had Peter's housewarming party...tonnes of laughs...did I mention the 'Round the world table tennis championship'??? Always fun, always fun!! We also had a going away party for Ronnie and Janelle...also fun (hot tubbing rules!) and sad all at the same time! I am glad that they are following God's call on their lives, but it does leave a hole in ours...Miss you both so much!!






Anyway, that is kind of the reason that I haven't blogged much or called any of you..(sorry Alison, I'll do that this week!! :)

Jenn