A New Look

I am quite happy with my blog's make-over. For someone that gets bored of a single hair color in 3 months, my blog appearance lasted a fairly long time. Well, the lights are on my tree and it would be decorated, but I have to find some beady-like garland stuff. I have beads, but I want to update them a little. Therefore, I must find some so that my tree can be completed. Ethan and Gracie had no school today, so I purchased 2 gingerbread house kits and they decorated...for about 2 hours, I might add. And, those of you who know me well know that this is a ginormous feat; I did not 'take over' while they decorated. The houses turned out very well and I shall post pictures soon.

Tim is at hockey and I just finished watching Videos on Trial on Much. I find them funny because the jurors (often comedians) make sarcastic comments through entire videos...I wish that I could make sarcastic comments at dumb people throughout the course of life and it be socially acceptable. I mean, I do in my head, but not out loud. And for those of you that think that I am mean, most of them are aimed at myself!

I have been so busy over the past 3 months that I have not had a lot of time to write...even my email life has suffered. My mind is constantly racing. I actually joined a yoga class in October and I have to say that I am really enjoying it! Dawn, don't tell mom...Tim and I refer to it as my 'strength and stretch' class. My mother has an issue with yoga and I am sure that she has her reasons, however, I have not participated in anything that seems weirdly spiritual thus far. Although, I do have a funny story. Last night, for the 1st time since I have started, they ended the class with humming 3 ommmmm's. The first thing that went through my mind was ommming the alto line to go with it. So, I am sitting quietly trying not to laugh and at the end of the class I tell Teesha what I was thinking and she says that she was thinking the same thing. That is what choir is doing to us! We can't get it out of our brains....but I think that it would be funny if there was 3 part ommmmming one day....maybe that would bring another level of enlightenment, or something. Hee, hee, I am sure I am breaking some sacred rule or insulting some yogi this or that, but eh, what can you jolly well do? (There R & J, I used it...)

So I do have a question that I have been wrestling with for a while (remember I said that my mind has been racing) and I am not sure how to reconcile it. You don't have to give me an answer and for the love of everything good and pure in the world, do not write down a 'pat Christian answer'. Cause if you do, I will insert a sarcastic comment aimed at dumb people here. So, here it is: People have free will, which means that man can sin against man, woman, child in whatever grotesque way his mind can muster, however, God is sovereign which means that he knows all that goes on. Does he personally approve and allow all that happens, good and bad, in this world? And if so, how does one feel truly valued and loved by God? How do you not feel like He created you, but then sometime between your birth and 8 or 9, you feel out of his line of sight? If you feel like you have some light to shed on this or want to know where the bloody 'ell (another one, R & J) I am coming from, feel free to email me and we can chat about this more. But frankly, I am not looking for the well, He died for you Jenn cause that is not answering it for me right now. Heck, maybe you'll all just form a prayer group for crazy Jenn.

Catch you later.